Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Congrats....

...to all of our friends who will be having Happy June Babies. Good for you. This really is a DAILY struggle. Do we even WANT another baby?

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

What's in a name?

I just received the "book" my doctor's office sent me last week after multiple phone calls requesting information. It was actually an eight-page pamphlet. My favorite part was the glossary, which had an entry for "repeated miscarriage." Apparently, it is also called "habitual abortion". Wow.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

It's raining in my cube again

Mental note---Start wearing waterproof mascara. We're still waiting on test results from the fetal sample...I'm tired of being angry girl...I'm crying uncontrollably and unpredictably...again.

I just spent an hour hiding in someone's cube because my cube neighbor brought in his new baby and I wanted to avoid the "So when are you having another baby?" conversation. I'm thinking of marketing a button line. The first one will be "When I choose to procreate is none of your business." Put your orders in now.

Last night, I told Hub that no matter what the results are, we are just going to keep trying until we have another baby. At this point, it is the only thing that will "fix" what is broken inside of me. I can't go through all of this pain and then not end up with the baby. As gently as he could, he pointed out that we may get a result that leads us to say, you know, we have a child and we need to just accept that we won't have another.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Fifths Disease

Just when I was starting to feel better....I find out that my daughter has Fifths Disease. And maybe this was the cause of the miscarriage.

"...For some women, though, parvovirus B19 can lead to severe anemia in the baby and may even cause a miscarriage. The risk of this happening is higher for those women in the early stages of pregnancy. However, this occurs in less than 5% of pregnant women who have been exposed to fifths disease."

Awesome.

Update: They did a blood test and I already had the antibodies to Fifths Disease, so I must have been exposed to it at some point before.